I feel new. I feel like am someone else. Am I crazy?

Am I crazy for feeling something I’ve never felt before in my life. I feel like a new product from a known company and that is getting exposed to the new stores all over town. My whole life had changed because of a one month trip to Germany…..to Germany.  This trip was meant for me to improve my speech in German to advance and to be able to put Friendship Connection Exchange Program on my college application. But I had never realized how I could grow and make new friendships with this program. I felt important, loved and cared for by the new friends I had bonded with in Germany. Within a month I became friends with an American girl from Pennsylvania10. I felt happy that another American was going to be there with me in a country I’ve never been to.

As they made an arrangement for us to meet, we met in the kitchen and started talking for hours while my partner and her partner started making us pasta for lunch. It’s funny that I had just met this girl and we got along so well. It felt like we were sisters and that we had known each other for our entire lives. We talked about politics, and events going on, especially with school shootings, our president, new movies and our schools. Just this whole crazy stuff I had in common from someone that had live on the other side of the country made me realize that we as Americans have something in common with each other.

For the next couple of days we went to church every single Sunday, hung out every day with each other, went to parties, ate breakfast or dinner together, went exploring and touring small, famous towns around Germany close to my partners hometown. Together, we learned new words from store, to food, to signs and to the best sausages and burgers in Germany. I felt new. I did not feel like the old Anna.

This girl felt stronger, and wiser and growing to love God. Wait…? I just realized how I had changed within myself, after having an internal conflict with man vs. man. This whole sophomore year I would make poor choices and give up on half of my homework especially for AP World History. I had only passed the WHAP national exam with two credits, meaning I had failed and I disappointed myself.

But no, I had tried my best on that exam, I did not give up. I did not drop the course in the second semester when everybody else would and there was no point of being embarrassed on telling people my score.

I wanted to get baptized in Germany to renew my life again to Jesus Christ. As I was talking to the pastor, I told myself, ‘’Do I really need to get baptized again?’’ I mean if I meant it from the first time then, ‘’Why should I do it again?’’ And like us humans, we are not perfect. We make mistakes. My decision was made, I had decided not to get baptized. I just had asked for God’s forgiveness and told myself how I would go to the Lord’s house every Sunday and to get to know him better.

There was no accident that I went to Germany and met the most amazing and important people I still have in my life today. It was an unforgettable moment in my life and will be cherished in my hear forever.